Day 0

Hmm, what should i say?

Im not particularly excited or nervous for tomorrow. They got back to me last week about joining up : ) Signed the contract this week and met the other 3 interns (excluding YYY). Myself and YYY got through from our interview group, and im also thankful we are in the same department. They are taking in a total of 54 interns across the different departments, quite a huge number considering the current climate.

I didnt blog immediately (paiseh, MX haha) cos somehow I was not like over the moon over the call. Dont get me wrong, Im very grateful and happy, and i really thank God for this opportunity. But some other things were on my mind ,which Ill attempt to write out now. I guess it's because Im more relieved than elated; waiting for it to draw to a closure was quite draining emotionally if you get what i mean.

Beyond the euphoria i think i wanna hear from God what this means with regards to my future and more importantly in relation to what He is wanting to do this year. You know how sometimes our hearts can become deceitful, that when God blesses us we think we have become somebody and lose sight of other areas that God is wanting to build. We fail to internalize the blessing in relation to our local church, family etc and go our own way. Classic case of blessing becoming a curse? I have been there before countless times, so probably that's why i was more wary/grounded this time.

Anyway, after talking to Jeremy and praying my posture is more re-aligned, my mind is more sound, and i think Im ready for the next 10 weeks in CBD. : ) I feel God speaking to me as i read the Word just now: Chit, remain in Me and I will remain in you. You will bear much fruit if you abide in Me. Don't try to be somebody you are not. Stay humble, stay foolish, don't act like a know-it-all. Like what Ed the HR guy said, when in doubt, dont do it.

Im more assured now, really.

For those out there reading this post (secret viewers or otherwise), I hope this serves as a small encouragement that God really knows the desires of our heart. Stay faithful in the small things, always be grateful, dont take things in your own hands.

Trust in the Lord with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding, in all your ways acknowledge Him, and He will make your paths straight -Proverbs 3:5

Dont oversleep Chit!

PS: Oh i can take a week off for church camp :)