voice of truth

The giant keeps on telling me time and time again"Boy you'll never win, you'll never win."

But the voice of truth tells me a different story
the voice of truth says "do not be afraid!"
and the voice of truth says "this is for my glory"
Out of all the voices calling out to me
I will choose to listen and believe the voice of truth

the art of resume writing

Found in a portion of Chit's resume:

As a junior instructor, was selected to organize school's annual sports meet for 1600 students

Read: As a relief teacher, helped out his PE teacher Mr Ng with SAJC's sports day

Chit, you are getting it! : )

Something good on youtube

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=J7vcKY8TLn8

Lord i cry out
i need U now
More than ever before
My heart longs for U
Ur love's what i crave
it's U i adore

So i reach out to heavens
with my arms open wide
Come fill me again Lord
renew me inside

Come again Lord
wash over me
Come again Lord
restore new passion to me
Cause im down on my knees
and im praying it please
Restore new passion to me

After interacting with so many smart/smarter people these few days, realized its quite hard to express oneself adequately to others. Thank God He give us songs that are able to express our inward feelings, smart people or not!

Self discipline please

October 15, 2008 - How to Develop Self-Discipline by Rick Warren - Daily Devotional

God did not give us a spirit that makes us afraid but a spirit of power and love and self-control. 2 Timothy 1:7 (NCV)
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God wants you to develop a self-discipline that pushes you to do things, even as others are giving up. Over the years, I’ve observed six key expressions of self-discipline:
People with self-discipline master their moods. They live by their commitments, not their emotions. People who do the right thing even when they don’t feel like it accomplish most of what gets done in the world! “A man without self-control is as defenseless as a city with broken-down walls” (Proverbs 25:28 LB).

People with self-discipline watch their words. They put their minds in gear before opening their mouths. “He who guards his lips guards his life” (Proverbs 13:3 NIV).

People with self-discipline restrain their reactions. How much can you take before you lose your cool? “If you are sensible, you will control your temper. When someone wrongs you, it is a great virtue to ignore it” (Proverbs 19:11 GNT).

People with self-discipline stick to their schedule. If you don’t determine how you will spend your time you can be sure that others will decide for you! “Live life, then, with a due sense of responsibility … Make the best use of your time” (Ephesians 5:15–16 PH).

People with self-discipline manage their money. They learn to live on less than what they make and they invest the difference. The value of a budget is that it tells your money where you want it to go rather than wondering where it went! “The wise man saves for the future, but the foolish man spends whatever he gets” (Proverbs 21:20 LB).

People with self-discipline maintain their health. That way they can accomplish more and enjoy their achievements. “Every one of you should learn to control his body, keeping it pure and treating it with respect” (1 Thessalonians 4:4 PH).

The disciplines you establish today will determine your success tomorrow. But it takes more than just willpower for lasting self-discipline. It takes a power greater than yourself: “God has not given us a spirit of fear, but a spirit of power and love and self-control” (2 Timothy 1:7 NLT/NCV).

The more I accept God’s control over my life, the more self-control he gives me!
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Goals for this week:
1) Wake up early
2) Keep your promises
3) Live below your means
4) Focus on things that matter

Treasures in Heaven

Do not store up for yourselves treasures on earth, where moth and rust destroy, and where thieves break in and steal. But store up for yourselves treasures in heaven, where moth and rust do not destroy, and where thieves do not break in and steal. For where your treasure is, there your heart will be also.
-Matthew 6:19-21

Tonight as i was reminded of this verse when i prayed with a brother, i cried. Somehow God just encouraged me that nothing can be in vain when it is placed in his hands. If you sow faithfulness, you will reap faithfulness. And even if you are faithless, He will still remain faithful.

Newspapers these few weeks have so many business commentaries and comments about the economic meltdown. Everyone have something to say. In honesty, i was swarmed and overwhelmed with all the explanations and suggestions to move forward. Yet God's word summarizes it so well for me: Your heart follows your money. Financial planning and investing is very important to christians and non-christians alike. But when all is said and done, how much did you contribute to God's kingdom? In terms of your talents and money probably? For my non-believing friends, how does the learning and understanding of investing made your life more meaningful and purposeful? Does it contribute to any good other than personal financial freedom?

I was tempted these 2 days to go into pity-party mode about some stuff. But i thank God for answering my little prayer during LTS to pray for the offering. Haha, that encourages me somewhat. I also thank God that He has helped me to be trustworthy, even though by nature im not a very reliable person(eh, Jacob is a deceiver le). When (cca) people tell me they trust that i will return them the money i owed, even though it is taking years, i appreciate that. And i know it's not because im good, haha cos im very not. But i believe it is God's training over the years with what little i got.

Lord, thanks. And help me to be greatful always.

i wish they can say...

"I think my father did his best."
- Chit's children

Are you alive today?

Are you alive today?

No, i dont mean breathing-alive. I mean living-alive. Do you feel like you are living lately? Or are you just existing? All of us can testify of going through that phase, some more, some lesser. It sure feels sucky. Come on, don't dismiss it as part and parcel of life. I'm not saying it is not, but having the attitude of "Let's just grind through this, tomorrow (or next week, next month, next year?!) will be a better day" sounds like we are denying our true inner self. It's like telling our hearts to stop beating, to stop functioning. The more we do that, the more our hearts beats slower, and a day will come when it stop beating no more. I'm sure we have seen people like that; people who have lost all their ideals and dreams, people who are embittened by the failings of this world.

Today i feel more alive than i've been lately. I did things that made me feel connected with my true self. I feel like im breathing again. I started writing cards to encourage people. I made sure i kept my promise to meet someone. Goodness, it sounds so simple but yet i feel so happy. I feel significant. I feel good to keep my word. I feel like im living again.

What about you? Have you been living? If not, perhaps it's time to do something that makes your heart beat again. What is that you ask? Only you yourself will truly know. It's in your heart.

A life without ideals is a life not worth living for.

Thanks Lord.

Dear, oh dear

1) Lord

I'm quite disgusted with myself. Argh. That I am so far from where i think i am. Even as i struggled through the last week with my studies and negativity, i thank you for friends who care, and my mum who loves me in spite of my apalling responses towards her. Forgive me Lord. Even as you brought me down to my knees, may your grace also lift me up once again.


2) My word is my bond. Or is it?

"Okay, ill get it done, i promise."

"See you tomorrow!"

"Hey let's meet up for lunch this week. I'll call you."

"I'l read my bible and pray."

I said the above and more during the past few weeks to various persons, all of which i didnt fulfill. Chit you are really pathetic le. You can't even keep your word. What makes you think you can be trusted? Please don't say you are struggling; set a higher standard for yourself.
Lord, please help me to change to be a man of my word, even if it costs me something sometimes. I don't aspire to be great among many anymore, just help me be trustworthy to a few. Don't let me cheapen my own words again.

3) Mark 10:15

If you can't worship God passionately, please join a children church near you. Learn from them.

Shares Buyback

Microsoft, HP, Nike in shares buyback

-The Business Times, 24th Sept

It's rare i read something in business times that i understand, so here's one to recap what i learnt in FA. What is shares buyback and why do companies engage in shares buyback?

Basically it means companies are buying back shares that are publicly available in the market. This reduces the number of shares that investors like me and you can purchase. There can be a couple of reasons why companies chooses to do so. Shares buyback increases the earnings per share of the company, a ratio that is commonly used by investors to guage how attractive the stock is. Alternatively, the guys at Nike may be thinking that their shares are so undervalued in this current market turmoil that they better buy some for themselves cos the share price will increase in the future. Again, investors may deem this move as a vote of confidence by the company itself, and may also move to increase their portfolio of Nike shares.

However, you dont buy something with nothing. The company buys with CASH. And like what JinWen said, in this current market situation, the best move may be to hold cash. Cash is king now, if you believe him. Specifically, cash that can otherwise be plowed back to generate additional profits have now been used to buy back shares. I doubt Warren Buffet will do such a thing. It is the same as giving out dividends. Basically you are telling your shareholders that look, this $1 i earned im going to return to you. But Buffet believes that you not not maximizing shareholders interest in so doing. If your business is truly profitable and can generate greater revenue in the future, it doesnt make sense to give away $1 which can be plowed back to generate many more $1 in the future.

So you gonna really examine the company's motives in each a move.

Don't run Chee Wai Chit

I was quite discouraged these couple of days as i felt i couldn't break through in the same areas of my life. I know God is helping me this season to handle some negative thought processes, but i just feel that i always disappoint Him when i still respond in the usual way.

So, how will you respond? Will you run away from God and people, as usual? Will you indulge in your pity-party? Remember, you are only truly a failure if you dont't learn from your failures. Come on Chit, show me some fighting spirit. And please don't use your own strength; you have little. Show me true courage by coming to God broken, and asking for repentence. Don't let your pride get into you and think you can't go to God. Actually, He's all you got.

How we respond when the tyres hit the road will determine what kind of person we become(both in your christian life and all aspects ba!). And if you know the life span of a plane, it won't be only for once. It's a daily thing!

P.S: Sorry Pris, i cant seem to get the tagboard to work, haha!

There's something about Jacob

Trivias of the day:

1) Jeremy called me a silly man for starting a blog

2) Almost all my friends believed me when i told them the url is handsomeboy4eva.blogspot.com

3) When i told my cell group about the new word i learnt in OBHR, "narcissim", they said it described me very well.

Hmm, what's this world coming to?

Anyway, just want to share something i shared with the guys during cell tonight. I recalled my christian name is called Jacob when i was baptised years also (Gasp, Chit has a christian name?). I cant remember why this name, but i thank God that over the years i really see some similarities between myself and Jacob.

Firstly, i must say that i have not done an in-dept bible study about Jacob. But during my quiet time i discovered abit about this man. Okay, Jacob is not the most godly man you can find in the bible. Here is a man who stole his bro's birthright and slept with his maidservant when Rachel was barren. Jacob is apparently a rather shrewd businessman(or cunning depending on how u see it). Check out how he increased his flock in Genesis 30.

But his defining moment is when he met with the angel of God on his way to meet Esau. I mean, how dare he wrestle with God? How dare he demand that God bless him? In that sense, he's holding God to ransom you know? And if it's Abraham, still acceptable la. But remember it is Jacob le, not the most godly man around.

BUT you know what. There's something about Jacob that delights God. There's something about Jacob that attracts God to him. He is so persistent that he refuses to let God go. He is so desperate for a touch from God. Wow. My personal opinion is that he is like the masculine version of the woman with the issue of blood.

Persistence. Desperation. A deep desire for God that surpasses his situations and weaknesses. Indeed, there's something about Jacob.

God's the boss

Beyond being just an avenue to express myself better, it is my prayer that this blog can be a blessing to whoever reads it. Well, i mean, tertiary students like myself are at a level where they can formulate their opinions easily, which is good. I enjoy SMU life cause there are so many thinkers/speakers that are better than me. Contrary to feeling inadequate or inferior, i enjoy learning from all my friends. However, the world don't need your opinions; they need to know that there is a God who loves them and gives them a purpose. In terms of propagating that latter message i must confess im quite poor.

So Lord, i consecrate this blog to you. Let it not just be a place for me to voice my opinions on whatever issues, but be an avenue where people are truly encouraged and inspired to live for you.

Pastor mentioned during evening service that the greatest challenge facing christians these days are not the persecution of their faith, but rather the dilution of our faith. How true! We are challenged in many areas to lower our standards as christians, and such influences can be so subtle. Think we really need to learn to humble ourselves on a daily basis.

On a sidenote, Morgan Stanley and Goldman Sachs, the last 2 pure investment banks left standing, came under the Fed Reserve this morning. With this move, the investment banking model has been effectively scraped in US (at least for the forseeable future la). This is an attempt to prevent the demise of their good pals like Leh B, Merrill L and Bear S. Wow, this is exciting times for those who are looking to carve out a career in the financial sector man. Not that im gloating at these banks, but i mean its exciting that we are witnessing history unfolding before our very eyes.

Okay, got to study liao

Chit has a blog.

Today marks a new chapter in my life. I attempt to start a blog. Firstly, Chit doesn't like to type, but Im rather good at doing summaries. Also, those who know me understands that i have no flair in IT stuff (Yes, blog is a high-tech thing for me). I took half an hour just to get the settings up, and it is still quite chui. Oh well, gonna start somewhere.

So why Chit? Why are you having a blog? You know you are slow at such stuff. You know you always initiate stuff but never have the consistency to maintain them. Are you sure this won't be another one-off things you specialize in doing?

Hmm, true indeed. Lately, i've been wanting to do up a blog. Felt that it could be an avenue where i learn to express myself better in terms of words. I realize Im good at talking about THINGS/EVENTS, but when it comes to myself, Im quite weak. I think sometimes it gets rather frustrating when i cant express how i truly feel, and felt that God wants to help me develop in this aspect. I think im 22 liao, but i still converse like a teen sometimes. So hope this helps.

And of course, i think this is a good avenue to let my friends get an update of me (yes, Amy, Billy, Catherine and Danielle). At least that's what Wesley said.

So cheers to the first post!